Thursday, May 20, 2010

My Personal Nightmare******Warning this post contains TMI and if you have a penis you might want to just close the page now*

I started spotting on Sunday and thought WHEW! It's almost over. God was I wrong.

On Tuesday night I started hemorrhaging and passing things that looked like they belong in a horror movie, the pain was rough, but I could take it. After over three hours of this, I started to feel flush and dizzy and freaked out. I called the Ob and he didn't call back for 72 mins, I timed him. He said I would be fine, as long as I didn't pass out, though that could be normal. Fortunately everything slowed down and I eventually went to bed.

The next morning I felt okay and figured the worst was over. WRONG again. As the day went on the cramps became worse and worse, so bad I couldn't stand. I went to ER and was taken right back to a room, the pain had my blood pressure through the roof. The intake nurse asked my pain on a 1-10 scale and I told her I was a 9. I figured SOMEONE would help me...but she vanished and never came back.

I know the ER is a busy place, so I waited. But the pain just became worse and worse, I started blacking out, had soaked though my gown and sheets and was sobbing. I called the nurses station twice but no one came to my room for 2 hours.

The doctor came in and took my information, I was pretty much incoherent by then, but I heard him say they were going to bring me pain meds and he would do a pelvic exam. Thirty minutes later he came in to do the pelvic exam and found fetal tissue trapped in my cervix. Since he was already there he removed it, but that entailed lots of pain. I was crying like a baby and I said, "at least a Tylenol would have been nice before this". He was upset and thought the nurses had given me the pain meds already!

He was going to send me home, but when he called my ob, he said he wanted an ultrasound done and said if there was more tissue, I needed a d&c right away. I finally was given something for the pain and went for the ultrasound. To my horror I hadn't even passed the sac.

There was a snag though, the on call ob refused to do a d&c for a blighted ovum.
Saying, I will pass the sac in 2-3 days, she also said I will continue to cramp badly and bleed until then.

They sent me home with 12 vicoden, sobbing.

Now for even more fun, the horrible pains are back. Some of you may recall I have had an ob issue, my old ob's will NOT see anyone with any high risks, I am all kinds of them (this is a malpractice ins issue), so they sent me to a high risk doc. I was not impressed with him, but I had no choice. The big problem now is the high risk doc does not do d&c's at all and no ob will take me on as a miscarriage if they had not seen me as a pregnant patient. So I had to call my old ob, who is a giant ass (read Kai's story to see part of why), and BEG them to see me and help me get through this. I am waiting for the nurses call back now.

This is the longest, most painful, crappiest miscarriage I have ever had. I am ready for it to be over, and I am sure everyone is ready to hear me stop bitching about it. Thanks for all the support the last few weeks. You all are wonderful.

This post was written while in pain and on meds, please forgive horrible grammar and spelling.


bitethebedbugs said...

Oh sweetie. I am SO sorry for what you're enduring and that it is magnified by all the horrid OB stuff. I hope this nightmare will end for you soon, don't be shy about the vicodin okay.

My Bottle's Up! said...

oh hun, this is so horrible and most definitely a nightmare. i am so unbelievably sorry for so many things that you are enduring right now.

WannabeMom said...

Oh sweetie, I am so sorry.I'm at loss for words. I am so sorry for all that is going on. Huge hugs. I'm praying for you that this is over soon and the pain will go away.

Ronda said...

I'm so so sorry you are going through such hell. I'm so sorry the dr's and medical staff at the er were asses. Bitch all you want, you need support and you've got mine. I know losing this child is a terrible blow, I just hope this is over soon for your sake and you can start to recover. What about planned parenthood? Can you see them w/o using your insurance, find out how much up front for a d/c? Just a thought. Hang in there.

Ronda said...

Sorry, my 'bitch all you want' comment sounds wrong. I don't think you are bitching. You are going through hell and need support, it's ok to ask for it and let us know how you are doing. It's not bitching, it's reaching out and you've got a lot of people here for you.

mom2nji said...

It wasnt taken wrong at all. Thanks :)

Jess said...

Go ahead and bitch. I'm thinking of you daily. Seriously, all those medical professionals should watch out. I'll cut them. *hugs*

PrincessJenn said...

Oh. My. Gawd.
I can't understand on any level why anyone in the medical system thinks how you're being treated is acceptable.

I'm so sorry you're having to deal with all this BS on top of the emotional upheaval of a miscarriage.

Sarah R said...

I can't even wrap my head around this. It's all SO WRONG.

Alex @LateEnough said...

I am so sorry that you are going through this and you are getting no support from the medical community. Ugh.

Woo222 said...

Oh my sweet girl, I'm so sorry. How the hell can the hospital be like that? I am just stunned. Everytime I think they've hit a new low, I'm wrong. I want this hell to be over for you, the pain, the fear, the feelings of isolation. I love you. I am thinking of you constantly. I wish I could DO something to help. Very strongly worded letters to the hospital and the licensure board for your crappy doc might be a good idea..but for now, take the vicodin and try to rest. :( I love you so much. ~S

Gwenny said...

What the hell is it with doctors? My daughter started having really painful periods. They kept saying it was a kidney stone or something else and I kept saying, I have ovarian cysts, she probably does too. I can't tell you how many times we sat in the ER, with me holding her hand and sobbing because of how much pain she was in. Finally got a doctor who listened . .too late, the cyst was the size of a grapefruit and had crushed her ovary. /sob Moron doctors.

I hope you are feeling better.

Sam_I_am said...

that is so horrible. I'm sorry that you have to go through this.