It is report card week for my son's. Noah brought his home Tuesday. I held the envelope with mixed emotions, this has been an incredible year for Noah so far. A HARD fought battle, that took a turn in our favor this year. Yet, I was still worried, his report cards have never been pretty. Noah's schooling in general has been a rough road but this year his teachers have worked miracles. It really didn't matter what said, I KNOW he is making major progress. When I opened it I damn near (ok maybe I DID) cried tears of joy, five A's and one B. All S's in behavior. ANNNNNDDDD for the first time he surpassed a goal on his IEP. I told him over and over how proud I was of him. He beamed. I took all three boys to Sonic for slushes and rented them a movie to celebrate.
Jordan was sick and was home so he missed getting his until today. He had a perfect report card. No less than I was expecting of him. He is like me in so many ways, slightly neurotic and accepting nothing, but the best from himself. I was so proud of him as well and of course told him how awesome he was. I made cupcakes to celebrate.
It's so hard to balance. Yes they both had fantastic report cards and yes I am proud of both of them. But it's not the same feeling. For Jordan, it's a matter of fact. He is smart. It took him a little while to get the reading down, but he has it locked now. I don't stress about Jordan's future, well anymore than the average mom. For Noah, ever letter, every tiny milestone is a HARD. So every victory, is that much sweeter.
I won't even get into my concerns with adding Isaiah, who is looking to be in the gifted range, into the school mixed next year.
I try to let all three boys know I am proud of them and all that they achieve and love them even when they don't, but it's hard not to keep my emotions in check and treat them all equal.
And while I am on the subject of grades, I got a B+ on a philosophy paper this week. I was not happy. I have a 4.0 and am having a hard time accepting that I might actually get a B in a class. Sigh. I am too old for this college crap.
Not dead yet.
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