I just want to be normal.
I want to not worry about everything.
I don't want a simple spot on an x ray to turn me into a nonstop panicked disaster. I think the worst. Even though the dentist thinks the white blob behind my wisdom tooth is probably nothing more than an extra unformed tooth, my fucked up mind goes straight to cancer. I can't breathe. I over research on the internet. Even though the research still says it's mostly likely what the dentist thinks, I still panic.
I wouldn't wish a panic attack disorder on my worst enemy.
I can't take this shit anymore. It seems that I am allergic to all the SSIR's meds that could help me.
I can't imagine what it's like to not think that every scratch bump and bruise is something horrible.
I feel so alone in this.
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